A day in the life

what I have done today?

I done nothing important. I read a book about cognitive linguistics. The process of reading it is very annoying. But I have to finish It because tomorrow I need to talk about it in the cognitive linguistics class. There are only four people in our class. Since it is a small class, everyone in it  tries to seize every opportunity to display their ideas and leave an good impression to the Professor.

The class is so boring.

Normally we talk about the theory about cognitive linguistics without even truly understanding it. Sometimes I wonder if the professor really know what cognitive linguistics is.

I am sad.

I am sad because I don't enjoy the course. It feels like I am wasting my time doing  boring things.

I am sad.

I am sad because I am alone and lonely. Some people may say that the elderly should be the group to be lonely. But the truth is opposite, we group feel more lonely than the elderly do.

why I am lonely?

The first reason is that My parents broke up. There seems to be no home for me now. I am just like stray cat roaming in the campus. In the campus period, there seldom exists moments that my parent having a good time with me. They are busy at making a living.

I

I am not happy.

I was happy before.

I want to be happy.

I am in a abyss.

I do nothing good for my future in the abyss.

I just can't and won't do things benefit me because I am alone.

I won't do nothing if I am lonely.

The most dreadful thing about me is that I am losing the heart to feel love, to pick up the lost me. 

I want to meet a guy that can help me get the freaking out of the dilemma.

I have no confidence in finding the one I want to share life with.